It’s time for the second installment of behind the lyrics, and this week is a hard one to write. Trigger is actually one of the first songs I ever wrote, dating back to about 4 years ago. While it started out as a very simple acoustic song, it was reworked in production to have a much fuller and more elaborate feel to it. I chose to put it on the EP because it has become one of my favorites that I have written, and it really demonstrates what I hope my music can do in the long run. I wrote this song in the midst of dealing with depression, and it sort of came out as a way to make sense of what I was feeling at the time. I was in a place where I had been constantly slogging through these heavy emotions and just feeling really exhausted all the time for two years, and I didn’t know how to give myself a break. I woke up every morning feeling more tired than when I had gone to sleep, and I just needed the world and all my responsibilities to stop so that I could catch my breath. At its core, Trigger is a song about being honest with yourself and the people around you, in a way that only comes when you’re too tired to keep pretending you’re ok. It’s a really vulnerable place to be, and you feel like one word from someone would be enough to break you. I wanted to give a voice to that feeling in my own life, so that people in similar situations wouldn’t feel alone and that they might feel a bit better about being real with themselves and the people they care about.
Thanks again for reading and listening.